“…for the heart is an organ of fire.”
Friday, October 16th, 2009Until one has loved an animal a part of one’s soul remains unawakened.
– Anatole France
The above photo was taken December 14, 2002 when Bandit was probably not quite a year old and still “in the wild.” From then until forever he was the cutest and most gentle kitty boy I’ve ever known. One could hardly refer to him as feral, although that is what he was in some ways.
On Sunday afternoon, about 4:00, I went out to The Pen to take care of things as usual. Bandit was laying on the rug in front of the door and didn’t move when I walked in. He usually jumps up on top of the litter boxes and for his loves and scratches. I noticed his extremely fast and shallow breathing. I called to my wife and said something’s wrong with Bandit. As she approached, he let out a cry of pain and tried to stand up. His back legs seemed paralyzed. He had raspy breathing. The last time we had contact with him was 24 hours before and he seemed normal.
We got the pet carrier and with some difficulty got him in and drove to the after-hours pet emergency clinic. He was in so much pain that the staff had to sedate him to examine him. After x-rays came the diagnosis: Feline Cardiomyopathy. He was in congestive heart failure. His lungs were full of fluid. The heart had thrown a clot that had moved down the aorta to the hind legs, blocking circulation. The prognosis was worse than grim. We gave the OK for euthanasia. He was probably only about 7 years old.
I can’t remember crying so much. Ever. His disposition and attitude were always so sweet and innocent. He not only awoke part of my soul, he illuminated it. He has gone, but his light continues.
He and all the rest will change me in ways that, sometimes, are impossible to describe.




